From a practical perspective we could say that the story of Lot’s wife instructs us to “not look back” when life and, perhaps, our very physical, economic, psychological or spiritual survival demands that we move forward and not get stuck in the past.

My past isn’t relevant to God. He already knew me and my sins from the beginning. All my mistakes are only new to me, not Him. He knew me before He formed me and He knew the end at the very beginning. 

What’s better is that He chose me knowing that I would do all that I did. Knowing all of that, He still chose me! Knowing all that I do, He still blesses me. So if the devil tries to place guilt in your heart for past sins, just know that God already knew you were going to do that before you left your mother’s womb. Though He already knew, He still chose to love you, watch over you and care for you. The question is, will you let Him?

Sometimes we can act like a bitter woman towards the Lord. What do I mean? I mean that some women are bitter because man after man has done them wrong. Then, a man comes along with good intentions and a pure love and we treat him nastily.

I’m sure people have held things over your head all your life. I’m sure people have brought up your past countless times. God isn’t some regular person. He is not a regular man! He is our perfect heavenly father. You don’t have to be bitter towards Him. I know it sounds too good to be true, but you’re not dealing with an imperfect being. If you would just realize who God is you wouldn’t expect Him to behave like one of us. He is not one of us. He made us. He is the Almighty! Expect imperfect behavior from imperfect beings. 

Our God is holy, just, good, pure, perfect and powerful!

Know who our God is, then you’ll know what to expect!

Faith is such a simple concept once you study and understand just how little God is asking. All He’s asking is that you believe. No strings. Just believe and never give up that belief.

The faith of a mustard seed? Are you kidding me? That’s all you’re asking Lord?

It used to seem so complicated, but I understand your character Lord. I understand your will. I understand these things more after just a little meditation on your word. Lord, I can’t imagine what I’ll be able to accomplish for you when I gain even more faith.

Thank you.

Many people are false prophets. Many people are coming in God’s name performing signs and wonders. God has put it on my heart to learn how to test the spirits so that I will not be deceived. God is teaching me more and more how to discern. This is a great explanation that I urge you to read so that you too may be able to test spirits and see if they are truly from God.

God is amazing isn’t he? My testimony which is on my blog talks about a dream where I see my hair long and full. It says that at one point in that dream my hair is falling out. Well, it’s been a while so let me tell you all what’s going on:

Did I keep my promise to God?

Yes and No.

I ministered to 2 people a week, I studied the word 2 hours a day, I stopped watching porn, I abstained from sex and I wrote about the experience in a blog. I did all of this…until school started. I continued to read and minister and study, but a couple of weeks into the school year I stopped. I got overwhelmed and stopped the 2 hours a day of study, the ministering and the writing of this blog. I did, however, continue to abstain from sex and stopped watching porn. 

So what happened to my hair?

It grew weaker as I grew weaker. I  prayed and pleaded with God to forgive me for falling short and he forgave me. I did however enter a promise with him and unlike us, he doesn’t break promises.

My hair got cut in December because it was falling out. Did I blame God? Nope. It reminded me of the dream I had. My hair was long at the end of the dream but before that, it started falling out. I realized God had already shown me this was going to happen and He knew I would break the promise. 

God is amazing though, because although my hair got cut very short, everyone loved it. It is now June, and my hair is longer than it was last summer. It’s also healthier. Now, everywhere I go people tell me that my hair is gorgeous. I say that because it proves God touched me.

When God blesses you and touches you it seems like everyone around you will confirm what he did in your life. They’ll call you blessed. All of the compliments I get confirm that God is blessing me, still. He hasn’t forgotten about me. I know it might seem silly, but it’s true.

So, what now?

I’m going to continue to write in this blog because I was overwhelmed by the messages I received during my absence. This blog blessed many people. God gave me a talent; I can write. I’m going to use that talent to give him all the due praise.

No promises this time, just lots of praise and thanks for the journey.

Can I be honest? I give up to easily. I believe every last word of the Bible. I believe that God can heal anyone right now at this very moment, but as soon as I need a healing from the Lord (which I have for the past 9 years) it’s hard for me to believe. My situation seems so impossible that I lose faith.

I know my God is all powerful, but when it’s me on the receiveing end of the healing, it’s hard to keep up the faith. I’ll believe strong for 2 days, but after that I start being discouraged by the words of others. It seems like as soon as I decide to believe that’s when the attack comes. I should expect that. I need to learn from each and every time that I lose faith.

I know the Lord will heal me if I just believe. I need to refuse to let go until I receive my blessing. I need to wrestle—like Jacob did with the angel—and never ever let go until I receive my blessing.

Lord forgive me for my unbelief and thank you for this revelation. Lord, you want to teach me a lesson. That’s why you haven’t healed me yet. Not because you aren’t able, but because you want to teach me not to quit.

Lord, you’ve watched me quit things my whole life. My mother has told me to stop being a quitter my whole life. I made it by without taking her advice, but you aren’t letting it go. You’re teaching me right now. As my Father you are giving me a lesson. Thank you for the revelation and thank you for caring enough to give me instruction.

Your son Jesus gave the parable of the persistent widow. That message is for me. Thank you for this revealing this to me. Thank you.

I prayed for you. I can relate to that struggle. It’s a hard one.

2 Kings. Chapter 6 & 7. 

While reading this I wondered to myself why we need to know all of these details of how they made the temple and how long it took. It made me realize that they did these things very carefully and precisely. They built this temple very accurately being careful to follow God’s instructions. We should treat the Bible this way. The Bible is a book full of instruction. We should be careful to follow it accurately as well. Our body is a temple so we should be as careful as they were to keep it pure, holy and acceptable.

I’ve got something short and sweet to say: Run the race with endurance!

When you actually come to understand this short and simple statement you will no longer let guilt keep you away from God. I have been guilty of saying things like “Man, God has to be mad at me. I can’t go to church.” or “I messed up really bad this time. I can’t even go back to God.” These thoughts are totally wrong. God always forgives! I have realized this and everyday I tell myself to “run the race with endurance.” When I feel that I’ve sinned in a terrible way I tell myself to run the race with endurance.

If you have endurance that means that you don’t stop. You endure through whatever conditions or trials. Endurance is defined as  the act, quality, or power of withstanding hardship or stress. We’re not being asked to live a perfect life. We were born sinners. God knows that we have to fight daily to deny our flesh. Why should we beat ourselves up and drop out of the race just because we feel that we aren’t doing that well? So what if you’re last place! At least you’re still running! If you quit you will never finish, but if you are last place and you endure you will surely finish. No one can change themselves over night. Things take time. Run the race with endurance, not with the expectation of perfection.

Be blessed. I just said a prayer for you all :)

I know you all can tell school has started. I’ll probably be posting with weekly updates instead of daily like I could during the summer. I won’t quit. I’ll just continue to make it work. Pray for me. Being in college is great but the lifestyles and temptation that I’m around is very overwhelming. I can already feel myself drifting. Please keep me in your prayers. Be blessed :)